Twisted:

Turn me around
Again
And Again
I can't walk straight
And you don't understand

The bloody lines
The dark black ink
All tell of lies
What do you think

Twisted and Morrbid
The poems spout
Out of my bloody mouth
So look about

The colors are blurring
Every shape has a bend
This twisted peom
Is coming to an end

So turn me about
Again
And agian
I can't walk straight
And you'll never understand
(12/24/05)

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MIssing you:

I can't help it
I miss you so much
Every moment away
My heart hurts a bunch

I want to call you
And beg you to come
But I know I can't
It would be dumb

I want you to hold me
And promise me things
Promise you love me
And everythign I've dreamed

I can't help but miss you
I know you miss me too
I just want to kiss you
And spend my time
Holding your hand
Feeling safe in a land
That i know can't be true
(12/27/05)

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Feeling Used:

I'm feeling used
You mad me feel special
So I told you some things
And became your tease

You tired to get me
To go further with you
YOu wanted to use me
For a little fun

You wanted to use me
Now I see
You just act like
You care about me

If I come near me
Don't expect me to hug you
And act like I don't see

I'm not like a little sister
Not to you
So stay way
(12/10/05)

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Paul:
You're perfect
I don't care what you say
You're an
Earth Bound Angel
God sent my way

Your peacefull eyes
Draw me into
A false reality
I only wish could be true

Though I love you
And you love me too
I know that  it was
Truly God
Who led me straight to you
(12/9/05)

Every Way:

Trying to write
A sweet simple poem
About the man in my life
With olive green eyes

I want him to read it
And know how I feel
The there isn't a moment
I don't want to see him

His bright olive eyes
And warm gentle smile
His sweet calming voice
And strong solid arms

The list could go on
Forever and a day
Because I love him in every way
(11/29/05)


BBFE:

You're my BBFE
My Best boyfriend ever
Because you?ve been
And will always be
My BFFL
My best friend for life
(11/29/05)

One Week:

It's not a shock
But One week
Together with you
In sweet bliss

You've made me laugh
And sigh
Sweet awe

You're sweet and charming
I never knew
It would be so peaceful
With you

One week till I see
One week since we last met
I can't wait for this week
To come to an end!
(12/3/05)

Don’t care anymore:

I made the mistake

And I just don’t care

I hoped and hoped

And hurt myself in the end

I try not to yell

And in the ends that all I do

I made a huge mistake

And fell in love with him

I don’t care now

What you do

I’ve screwed up so bad

And now I could careless

I told you to forget me

And that’s something that I mean

So stop reading this poem

And walk away

I yelled at you

I screwed up

And I don’t care

(9/20/05)

Giving Up:

I’m giving up

I can’t go on like this

I love you

It’s true

And he was my friend

But I can’t do this

I can’t be who I was

So I’m giving up that girl

The one who smiles

The one who loves you

I’m giving up on everything

Everything but school

And life.

(9/20/05)